March 17, 2008

Ollie///Beauty is spending time in between

Here is another poem, my newest-

Secrets (Spoken from the nine years wisdom)

I have a secret,
Do you want to know?
It’s bursting inside of me,
And I’m not meant to tell,
But if I don’t tell someone,
I’m going to burst!

My secret is that baby brother,
But mummy does not know because I cleaned it,
Except mummy knows when something has happened,
You can see it on her face,
But she does not know yet.

I’ve another secret,
Something to tell,
It’s special and sacred and surprising as well,
This secret is bigger and bolder,
It may upset some people,
Promise not to cry?

My secret is that I forgot to do my homework,
My teacher knows…
But my parents don’t,
I took the letter and feed it to the bin,
How will they find out except mum always knows when something is wrong?
She is staring over now,
What must she be thinking?

Ok, here’s the deal,
Another secret to tell,
As long as no one else finds out?
I missed school today,
And yesterday,
I went out with my new friends,
They think I’m cool,
And we are not going to school tomorrow.

My exams are coming up,
And I’m starting to worry,
I should have gone to school,
Mum can see something is wrong,
But she does not comment,

A secret that’s inside,
Makes me wonder if I should tell,
It’s substantially bigger than before,
I’m guessing it’s good to talk,
I get this feeling that is great,
Whenever I see Simon,
But I can no longer tell if it’s Simon or the needle that makes me happy,
Because Simon is my friend,
At least that’s what he says.

My mum does not know,
Nor does Katie,
I went to Simon and we kissed,
(I kissed a boy),
We did more than kiss.

I am going to the doctors,
Because there may be a problem,
I am having bad nights,
I’m finding it hard to breath,
My head hurts,
My eyes are bad,
The doctor takes a look,
Am I sexually active?

Here’s another secret,
It’s important that you know,
Except other MUST not know,
They will stare,
They will point,
I am ill,
I have an illness,
They don’t look hopeful,
It’s called AIDS.

One last secret for me to tell,
Then you will know me better than anyone else,
I have gone away,
And I am not coming back,
This is my requiem,
My song,
My warning,
Don’t dabble in depraved, immoral, shameless,
Imperfect, unscrupulous desire,
Stay clean because my mum’s face now tells a different tale,
She can tell something is wrong,
And she still won’t talk.

Anyway, an explanation about why the new poems... now... Last year, I entered a poetry competition called The Foyle Young Poets of the Year where I sent loads of poems in after it being advertised at school and recently I was sent a letter with the book of winners from last year and a letter to say that entries for this years competition are now being accepted and so here starts the new writings due in for July 31st.
The McGillian came out last week and it was great! People actually read it and I have heard from different people that they liked it and are looking forward to the next issue- the beginning of my initiative to get people reading and writing and finally using their imaginations! In just a few weeks, is the beginning of the road to the next issue.
Oh! The wonders of online shopping, is it an addiction, seriously! I opened up an HMV account the other week and since... well, let's say that the HMV server could be in overload. It's not that I keep buying... well, I am but it's that I keep looking around at different things, looking at the prices and sales :D Well there you are... Amazon, HMV... could I get the clothes.... uh.... no.... I have to try the shows on before!
Been watching quite a lot of Friends recently... I finished season 9 & 10... and again pushed myself to the last episode :( So good, funny and yet really upsetting because it's the last one!!!! Oh! What to do! Well, I have started again, back to season 1 and every time I watch it, the funnier it gets and the more I understand, certainly the earlier seasons were gr8! What other TV has been entertaining? CSI, Torchwood, Ashes to Ashes, Damages, Skins, Dexter, The Big Bang Theory, Echo Beach, Moving Wallpaper & Hotel Babylon are all really entertaining me... Sure there will be some reviews soon/// this week the new series of HolbyBlue, House, Dirty Sexy Money & The Friday Night Project starts!
Shows which I have already seen that are coming, Gossip Girl, Desperate Housewives, Kyle XY & Grey's Anatomy... this is amongst other shows that I have been recording which are yet to watch, Mad Men, The Last Enemy, Lark Rise to Candle Ford and Reaper... of course back to the life of Ollie!
What can I rant about? iTunes overcharged me!!!! I have decided that illegal downloading is not the way to go and iTunes Store got my details over night... I have been getting their free single of week... which in the last months have actually been pretty good... and then came to the fact that I am going to buy songs... pay money to the artists who have put SO much work into their artfrom and perhapes get their song into the download chart! So far, I am looking at artists that are not major in the UK and are able to buy from iTunes.... which so far has been good but they overcharged me! £0.79 and instead they charged £1.58... why do that.... they could not do anything... then the money was put back and taken again... this happened again this evening... let's just see what happens in the account over the next week!
Hmmm... finished Media CW which is looking great.... we had to do a crime tease... the bit before the credits at the beginning. We planned (for ages!), recorded and then edited (for even longer!).... music done, it's in black and white, there is no rubbish in there and there is loads of other stuff... it is looking good and now done!
I got a clipboard on my wall... it's made of cork and looks great! There is pictures and messages and letters on there... awww... how cute!
And on a final note, my new heroes... Mark Ronson (musician) & Josh Schwartz (creator of The O.C & Gossip Girl)... What do you want me to say about them... they both do the greatest things which entertain me the most and I must say, Version, the Ronson album is great!!!! Here is the new Ronson song, Radiohead cover, Just, with the lead singer of Phantom Planet (the band who created The O.C theme)!

1 comment:

sophie nicholls said...

I like this poem. Good luck with your blog and keep writing! Sophie